Early Morning Heart!

I'm totally obsessed by breakfast. Probably because I only have black coffee everyday and I dream of having croissants, jam, fruits and all sort of cheeses. That's why I went insane with this amazing instagram account, it's just perfect.

But if love is not for fun, then it's doomed!

What can I say about this new Damien Rice's song? Such an intense video, you can feel the suffering through the melody, the lyrics. It can be quite depressing - some people would say - I just love it.
About this song, besides the wonderful melody what caught my attention is the way he says - I can wait without waiting - nobody understands love like he does.

But I’m Still Alive!

I just found this exclusive Christopher Owen's performance and what can I say? It made my day and this is exactly how I feel right now! Happy Saturday!

When enough is enough?

I've been thinking about it lately, because my heart seems to insist in somebody that does not care about me anymore and I was about to finally give up but then I saw this video:



Ps: I just love Chirstopher Owens!

I never cared about money and all its friends!

I'm in total bliss with this song my friend Ben sent me, in fact he sent me the whole Chelsea Wolfe's album, months ago but I just had the opportunity to pay attention to it closely right now. It's by far the most beautiful song I have ever listened to. It makes me wanna hug people and spread the love, actually I never felt so loved in my life, I thought I would be sad this month because I did not manage to travel so I stayed in Sao Paulo for the first time in years and I could not be happier, I'm spending so many good times with my son and my friends, I love my friends so bad, they are so good to me and I really don't know what would I do without them. Happy Wednesday!

I don't like you but I love you!

And I finish my vacation listening to She&Him, thinking about him! Happy Monday folks!

I wish everybody knew, what's so great about you!

The National makes me think about life and love and how much I care about this friend of mine and how important he is in my life right now and even though we're apart most  part of the time, when I really need him he's there for me and that's enough. This is one of my favorite songs from their last album and the lyrics could not be more perfect.
I have chosen this video because I really admire Annie Erin Clark from St Vincent, she's a really good guitar player and she adds a lot to their band.

Oh, when I lift you up

You feel like a hundred times yourself

I wish everybody knew

What's so great about you

Oh, but your love is such a swamp

You don't think before you jump

And I said I wouldn't get sucked in

This is the last time

Oh, don't tell anyone I'm here

I got Tylenol and beer

I was thinking that you'd call somebody

Closer to you

Oh, but your love is such a swamp

You're the only thing I want

And I said I wouldn't cry about it

This is the last time

This is the last time

We were so under the brine

We were so vacant and kind

We were so under the brine

We were so vacant

We were so under the brine

We were so out of our minds

We were so under the brine

We were so vacant

Oh, when I lift you up

You feel like a hundred times yourself

I wish everybody knew

What's so great about you

Oh, but your love is such a swamp

You don't think before you jump

And I said I wouldn't get sucked in

I won't be vacant anymore

I won't be waiting anymore

I won't be vacant anymore

I won't be waiting anymore

I won't be vacant anymore

I won't be waiting anymore

I won't be vacant anymore

I won't be waiting anymore

Jenny, I am in trouble

Can't get these thoughts out of me

Jenny, I'm seeing double

I know this changes everything

Jenny, I am in trouble

Can't get these thoughts out of me

Jenny, I'm seeing double

I know this changes everything 

It takes a lot of pain to pick me up

It takes a lot of rain in the cup

Baby you gave me bad ideas

Baby you left me sad and high

I always have the light on for you!

I never get tired of this song, I've been listening to it for ages and about two months ago I had one of the best moments of my life while I was listening to this song over and over and over.

We might live like never before!

Damine Rice is one of my favourites songwriters, nobody talks about love like him, he's totally intense, I could say he's visceral and I love it. I never had the opportunity to check him live but I have found this full concert, it was in Holland - June this year - the whole concert is amazing but the part where he drinks wine and sings Cheers Darling is theatrical, simply fabulous and his Irish accent wins me over. Take some time and watch the whole thing, please enjoy it, he's what we can say a complete artist!

Wake Up!

I had an amazing Friday, I was with this dear friend of mine and he makes me so happy, we were listening to this album, Funeral and I started to listen to Arcade Fire because of him, this year, shame on me, I knew them, but I was not into it and I'm totally in love now - I have chosen this video because it's live in Paradiso, Amsterdam, it's such a great and beautiful venue and if you read this blog you know how passionate I am about Holland - but what I want to share here is, sometimes I don't tell people face to face how great they are, how awesome they make me feel, then I come back home and I feel like calling and saying hey, you're awesome and I love you, but instead I come here and write about it. But this friend of mine is so busy that I'm sure he has not time to come here and read it, I always have to send the song in and write how much I care about him, I'm not good with words in person, I always say the wrong thing, I always had to fix it, texting via phone, email or facebook. What can I do? I'm only good writing it and I have noticed I've been doing this a lot and even when I get a present I don't show myself super excited about it until I get home and then I have picture it and put it on instagram or so, I don't know, sometimes I feel so thankful and grateful that I become speechless because life has being so great lately and I have so many amazing people around me, friends I truly truly love and thank God I write about them and I tell them at least via text how great and special they are.
 Well, this friend in particular, I'm sure he's going to be my friend forever, no matter what, because we were apart for almost eight years and even after all this time he never forgot me, I never forgot him, even though I never ever messaged him all these years, when reconnected, he did say I was kind of bad educated but he was never bitter or anything like that, he understood my reasons. That's real friendship, you know that person will be there for you, no matter what. He proves me that all the time, he's always there for me and he understands me, that's the most awesome thing about him. If you are reading this, you may think I'm in love with this person and I was, but real love between friends is way better than having a shallow and quick passion.
Life is amazing beautiful, why do we need to label things? He's my friend, he's not my boyfriend, not my husband. Why would I need one, I had two already. Now it's time for me to grown up for real and live life taking it easy.

Happy Weekend!

Without you there are no other colours!

I took the week to talk about love, I feel so romantic that I guess I'm really in love! Yesterday I went to therapy and I was so secure about my relationship, my work and family life that she told me I'm done, I don't need to go anymore, it was so fast, I've been seeing her since march, some patients stay 5 years with medication, I'm more than happy I'm cured. I credit Jesus Christ for this big change in my life and I have changed so much since I have found him. I still have a lot of friends who do not believe in God and I simply can not understand that, I hope somehow they can see the truth one day. Continuing about love, this is the song I'm listening to right now. Money Mark - Black Butterfly. I wish some day some guy can write a song like this for me.

I think about it all the time!

I'm listening to Soldout while I do my expenses report, yes I took the day to work hard! Excel tabs are so boring that I had to stop to blog a bit and all I'm thinking is:

Tell me how you sleep at night
Tell me who to look like 
Teach me how to smile right 
Give me all the time you have 
Tell me how you sleep at night
Tell me how you sleep at night
I think about it all the time
I think of all of the 
All things that I wont need 
All thing that I wont be 
Call it trouble and worries 
All things that I wont keep 
All the letters I wont read 
Everythings for the glory 
Tell me how you sleep at night 
Tell me where you run so fast
I wish you were on my side 
I wish I was on your heart 
Tell me how to camouflage
I think its all they want now
I think about it all the time
 I think of all of the 
 All things that I wont need 
All thing that I wont see 
Call it trouble and worries 
All thing that I wont keep
All the letters I wont read
Everythings for the glory 
All of the pages, the papers, the numbers, 
Remember the burden, the trouble, the pressure of

You talk to me, nicely, you're different!

I just came across this band called Soldout, they are from Brussels and I'm really digging it! Enjoy!

We can all be free!

I was going to write a bunch here and be deep, but sometimes is good to be shallow, so here is what I'm listening to, I'm thinking about love and even though I'm apart from my love right now I write about it to keep me closer and I think we all can be free and love at the same time!

Wear Sunscream!

I saw this very best video in 2005 and I was so affected by every word he says that I've been following his advice since then. I dance, I keep all my love letters, I get plenty of calcium, I enjoy my body and I'm not afraid of it and I wear sunscreen since I'm 20.  But something that really got me was being almost 40 and knowing that life is just beginning. Today I do everything I used to do but with more experience and more energy and I manage to do way more things because I sleep less, I wake up early, go sleep late, so I enjoy life more. I supposed to be a philosopher but I dropped school, I have way too much energy to stay thinking about life, but instead I multitask, everyday, and I'm always thinking about the meaning of my life. What I have learned is that I needed to let it go a lot of things and I did it, this year, and a great new life has opened for me, now I need to stop congratulating myself and stop thinking I'm awesome and get humble, that's what I need. But trust me, wear sunscreen and eye cream, take care of your face and your body, it's your post card. Life is hard, life isn't easy, thank God, otherwise it would be so boring. My point is life is all happiness if you put yourself into it.

Happy Sunday!

Somewhere between waking and sleeping

I've been listening to Air since 2006 , for who does not know they are a French band that I love. This song in particular, is very special for me, it makes me remember of old times, times that I was truly happy, not that I'm unhappy now but I have this feeling of something is missing all the time. Even though I'm surrounded by people, I have a special one in my life, I have family and I have lots and lots of friends, but some days like today I feel completely alone, and I can only find peace somewhere between waking and sleeping! Enjoy!

Without blindness, there is no sight 
You'd see further if you'd only close your eyes 
In unconsciousness I can find peace 
Inside prison walls I can find release 
There is a place that I have seen 

Somewhere between waking and sleeping 
Down at the water's edge 
Somebody waits for me 
Is it too late for me 
It's never too late, he says Without blindness, there is no sight 
You'd see further if you'd close your eyes 
Unblock the failure Without blindness, there is failure 
People gather by the river 
They were talking 

There is a place that I have seen 
Somewhere between waking and sleeping 
Leaning over the side 
Trailing my fingertips 
Feeling the water slip 
Into the quiet night 

Viewed from the wrong end of a telescope 
I see myself, so far below 
Still and silent, rest in peace 
The thread unravels 
Merciful release 

There is a place that I have seen 
Somewhere between waking and sleeping 
Now I can almost see 
Figures upon the shore 
He's gathering in the oars 
Where are you taking me

Come to me!

I've been listening to Bjork since she was with The Sugarcubes, she's amazing and she inspires me. I was looking for a song to post here and I found this one - from the album called Debut - and this song could not be more perfect for the time of my life right now.

come to me 
i'll take care of you
protect you 
calm, calm down 
you're exhausted 
come lie down 
you don't have to explain
i understand

I really wanna be your friend forever!

I'm so happy today and it's so good when you find the right person, the right friend, I was really blind for seven years and I had this friend of mine - we met in 2004 - but because my second ex was too jealous I had to cut contact with all my male friends, I asked him to forget me, it was not nice and I was kind of bad educated at the time.
BUT we finally reconnected about two months ago and he's the best friend I could ever have.

So this for you darling, you are the only darling I know, you can be sure of that!

I've tried to be tough
I've tried to be mean
I don't want to be like this
And I hope that you listen, all I'm trying to say is

Reach out and touch me, I'm right here
And I don't want to fight anymore
I really wanna be your friend forever
Friend until the end of it all

I know I've made mistakes
But I'm asking you give me a break
I really wanna be your friend forever
Friends forever

You've been a bitch
I've been an ass
I don't want to point the finger
I just know I don't like it, I don't wanna do this

What can I do?
Is it too late?
I just want to say I'm sorry
And I hope you listen, all I'm trying to say is

Reach out and touch me, I'm right here
And I don't want to fight anymore
I really wanna be your friend forever
Friend until the end of it all

I know I've made mistakes
But I'm asking you give me a break
I really wanna be your friend forever
Friends forever

Laura, baby, I'm right here
And I don't wanna fight anymore
I really wanna be your friend forever
Friend until the end of it all

I know I've made mistakes
But I'm asking you to give me a break
I really wanna be your friend forever
Friends forever

All I See!

I was listening to this song this morning, it's such a beautiful and intense song, I adore The Magic Numbers, so I hit YouTube and I found this awesome video. Love their accent so much and I dedicate this song to a special friend of mine, who's mad at me, I hope he can forgive me, this is for you darling!

Darling!

It's so good when you find in a song everything you wanted to say to a person! This morning I was listening to this song and it's exactly how I feel inside.
About 4 weeks ago I reconnected with an old friend and he's the only one I can really call darling!

Unfortunately I did not write this but I'm borrowing it from the band Girls:

I was feeling so sad and alone
But I found a friend in the song that I'm singing
I was feeling like a nothing inside
Then I found it all in the song
And yeah yeah  yeah uh-huh
It's coming straight from my heart
And yeah yeah yeah uh-huh
I gotta let it go
And yeah yeah yeah uh-huh

Man I felt like I was going nowhere
Then I found my way in the song that I'm singing
Man I felt like I could lay down and die
Then I found my life in the song
And yeah yeah yeah
It's coming straight from my heart
And yeah yeah yeah uh-huh
I gotta let it go
And yeah yeah yeah uh-huh